Well, it still sucks. At least I have given up thinking it won't ever won't.
Today was A Walk to Remember. I didn't walk. I attended the memorial part of the service. I kissed Solomon's quilt square and his scrapbook page. And as I stood trying to shelter my candle in the wind, I kept thinking, "my baby died and all I got was this stupid candle." I don't mean to sound cruel, but it just still sucks.
When asked if anyone wanted to speak, I did not go up. I am further down the road of needing to speak about my son and my journey. What I really wanted to do was speak about Tyler Clementi, an 18 year old Rutgers University Student who took his life a few days ago because of the cruelty of others. Tyler was someone's child too. No one should ever have to bury a child.
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just read your story on Faces of Loss...thanks for sharing. I am six months out from my most recent loss...Abigail Eden. I wonder if it gets better...thinking of you.
Our angel babies will always be a part of us...just as our living children are.
Hugs!
Jen
thanks Jen! please email anytime - it is forever up and down
Sharing in the sadness of these days with you....and knowing what you mean about the "I have a dead baby and all I get is this crappy candle."
I totally get that.
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