Tuesday, February 17, 2015

Grey's Anatomy

On Thursday February 12, 2015, Grey's Anatomy aired "All I Could Do Was Cry."  The story revolved around two lead characters and the prospect of losing their baby mid-pregnancy.  I wish there would have been one of those scrolling red bars at the bottom of my TV screen, you know the ones, they run most of the time during the winter months to warn of hazardous weather.

Anyway, I watched the episode because I love this show and happen to find myself home, without any kid-transporting or errand-running.  To say the show covered a lifetime of emotions is an understatement.

I was first moved when April became aware there was nothing she could do for her son in utero, that he was in pain.  This was the deciding factor for her to move forward to end her pregnancy. I know that moment, as does anyone who is probably reading this blog.  

Another poignant moment was when April's mother-in-law spoke to her about releasing her baby.  The MIL gave April the strength she needed.  I was blessed to have someone do this for me and it came in the form of my best friend's aunt.  She told me she would pray for me and while I cried to her on the telephone, she told me she would be my vitamin, she would be my strength.  I hear her words whenever I have the opportunity to see her.

And while April still is holding out for a miracle, knowing they occur, I remember I wanted one too. Who wouldn't?  I wanted to be the medical mystery, I wanted my miracle.  But in my immediate situation I would not have it.  My induction proceeded and I thought my physician was crazy.  But on TV, April and Jackson (her husband) were able to hold their baby for the few seconds that he lived.  Maybe that was their miracle.

Wednesday, September 03, 2014

Volunteer Photographers sought

If you're a photographer, please consider volunteering.  For so many of us, all we have are photos.  All I have are photos taken by a nurse.  I didn't get to see or hold Solomon.



Yesterday was the start of another school year.  Already?  It's hard to imagine Solomon would have started High School yesterday, along with so many of my friend's children.  To think that it's fourteen years since we lost him...The passage of time just doesn't make sense sometimes.

Monday, July 21, 2014

Ali paying it forward

My previous post was brief, about Ali's bat mitzvah.  As part of her on-going desire to 'pay it forward' she has started an online fundraising campaign.  She will match the total she is hoping to raise here:
Ali's Art Supply Drive

The plan is purchase supplies for summer 2015 for North Shore Holiday House Camp.  Please consider making a donation, every little bit count.  For more information on North Shore Holiday House Camp please check out North Shore Holiday House

Sunday, June 22, 2014

Alison Bat Mitzvah

On Friday June 20, 2014 Alison became a Bat Mitzvah.  For months, weeks and days I've worked on planning the party while she worked on learning her Torah portion. The whole process of planning was very emotional.  I cried almost every day while putting together her video montage.  Then I cried during the service, more tears of joy than sorrow.  How did the time fly by so quickly?

And it occurred to me a few times I should have been working on a Bar Mitzvah last year. I prayed to Solomon to just watch over her, and I think sometimes he does.

Thursday, May 15, 2014

Return to Zero

Please tune in and watch Return to Zero on Lifetime on May 17, 2014.
Cover Photo

Return to Zero

Thursday, May 01, 2014

Margery in Israel

Bittersweet feelings just now.  A comrade posted a photo of herself on the Mount of Olives overlooking Jerusalem.  She looks beautiful and the sun is shining over the valley.

I'm so happy for her!!!  I'm so happy I also got to stand where she is standing, and see the wonder of Israel for myself.

Not so happy when I remember I was pregnant with Solomon while I was there, although I didn't know it at the time.  Sigh.